"Devils In The Details"

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Am I only here as another substitute?

Fabricated; aggravated with attitude (Or is it all in my head)

So submissive, yet dismissive

And you’re quite complicit

Taking all the words

Anyway you that twist them (All to your heart)

 

Tearing down the walls, so that no one ever sees

Breaking all the barriers

Yet you’re never free (Or in your mind)

Looking at the options, like you have the right to see

Undeserving and unnerving

What you think you need (All in your head)

 

Redefine and realign

No more boundaries?

Rip away the trust

Am I a better adversary?

Or is it all in my mind?

 

Decimating; dissipated

Overrated, saturated

Advocating the domesticated

Memories that are living rent free in your head

All in inside of our fucked up thoughts

 

Play it over and over and over in my head again

So much so, every time

It feels like it’s all pretend

Repeating all the same

 

Punishments eradicated

Devastating fascination I’m obscene, but it seems

My motives were so agitated

All in your twisted minds

 

A coward always lies

Always fits in with the wise I’m a devil in disguise

And I feed on broken eyes

All in their heads

All in all of your thoughts

 

It’s so comfortable...

All in your head

The air feels so nice

All in your mind

The feeling so serene

All in your dreams (All and in between)

 

So cozy and so warm

All in your soul

Bundled up; and cuddle

All around your skull

Now it’s time to rest

I’ll wake you in the morning...

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"Failed Attempts"

 

Oh no, I fucking blew it! I can’t believe I had a chance 

What the fuck was I thinking? (Seriously) 

How could I let this slip… (It was all right there) 

Right in the palm of 

Right in the palm of my hands… 

 

Such a fucking a waste.

Missed another shot that I didn’t take.

A fucking moron, all the same.

And i know I’m too late

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Such a waste 

Missed a shot I didn’t take 

A fucking moron all the same 

And now I know it’s all too late… 

 

Stepping up now, step aside 

Hold your fucking self up high, filled with false pride 

Moping as I waste my precious time 

 

Such a shame, you didn’t even try 

 

Pitiful… (I am to blame)

Let it run, let it play 

On repeat, all day 

Let it run, let it play 

On repeat, all day 

 

Such a joke (all the same)

Let it play, let it run 

On repeat, everyday 

Every single fucking day

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Why am I so scared,

To just let it go? 

Why is it I try to hide,

That which I can’t find?

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Why am I so stubborn,

To think I have another try?

What is it I’m trying to find,

That always leaves, but never dies?

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Why is it only shame? 

Scolding with so much pride… 

How do I keep a straight face, 

And speak in disguise? 

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Why be so shy,

About why I like to whine?

Dying inside 

Every time, it comes to mind 

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Why does it still come to mind? 

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Why…

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“Doppelgänger Stranger III” 

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What was it about you that had me so mesmerized? 

I could never seem to think straight 

You had me so - hypnotized 

Rinse, lather, and repeat 

But I guess the ends will meet 

Not a thing now left to do but to take a seat 

 

And I have tried - I can never seem to look away, 

it’s a never ending struggle to escape 

Those brown eyes - 

Every single sound and the noises you made

Left me in such a euphoric state 

 

And I’ve heard - what was said and what was done 

In a sea of faces, you were not the only one 

And I see - I’ve got to leave this place all behind

But maybe just a little peek, one more time 

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(And I know) 

I have met you once before 

(And I feel) 

Love in lust has led to abhor 

(And I see) 

I was in you once before 

(I don’t care) 

That’s not me anymore 

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What was that fucking thing that had a hold of me?

Another image of a prophecy that has failed me repeatedly

I’m sitting, wondering why do I dwell, do I’ve got to hide?
It’s like another never-ending memory that keeps molesting me

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And I’ve tried - I can never seem to rationalize 

Everything I do leaves me longing for 

Another try 

Anything I can do? To see this through? 

To fantasize, and visualize... 

But it’s so disgusting in disguise 

 

(And I know) 

You’ve disappeared in front of my eyes 

(And I feel) 

You’ve done it all but realize 

(And I see) 

You will never look at mine 

(And I hope) 

That’s enough for the rest of time 

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I can never seem to look away...